Update from the last blog

A lot of stuff has happened since my last post. I have got a job and It has come to my attention the importance of me having a job. I finally feel like a valuable person to the family. It is one thing being a wife and mother. It is another when you are seen as a contributing partner to the relationship. Now let me explain because I understand that a lot of women are contributing members in their family without an outside job. I spent over 10 years to get my Masters. I did not spend that amount of time to stay home. When I initially stayed home with my daughter it was partially to finish my schooling. When I got pregnant the second time it was a shock to my system. Now I do love and adore my kids. I am learning the importance of having children in a family and their importance to my marriage. But that is not the only me. They are making me a better person but I am still me. I have felt unworthy for quite some time. So me getting a job has some how made me feel better about myself. It is giving me a reason to leave the house and interact with adults and have adult conversation. I am a kid at heart but I am also grown. I need adult stimulation and I was not getting that at home. So getting a job is definitely helping me regain my woman hood. NO MORE SWEAT PANTS. LOL.

Another thing, it has come to my attention that ppl think that I don't love my husband. I do love him. That is why I am still married. I got married for love and I am still here because I love him. You can be in love with someone and still not be happy. I was not happy. But I had to get things off my chest which is what the last blog was about. That is a part of me regaining my woman hood. I have to be true to who I am and reexamine who I am. I had no one to talk to that would not judge me. But I soon found out that even writing this blog allowed ppl to judge me but not directly to my face. You have to know yourself. I still don't know what is wrong with my relationship and I am not happy with all parts of it but I am content. I just needed to get things off my chest. Oh and as a WOMAN. I am suppose to always have a plan. If my man. partner, companion, and lover passed tomorrow. I am suppose to have a plan. I have to protect myself and my kids. So if you don't have a plan then you need to get one. Nothing in life is guaranteed to you. So you have to plan for the worst. Life is a bed of roses. It may smell good but hold it tight enough and you will bleed. Peace and Huggies.